Filed under: Odd Random Stuff Day
January 30th, 2008
Phun with photobucket.
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into Photobucket
3) Take a picture from the first page of results and copy the picture and post.
Age on my next birthday: 33
Place I would like to travel: Italy
My favorite place: home
My favorite object: bead(s)
My favorite food: cake
My favorite animal: cat
My favorite color: orange
Town I was born in: Derry, NH
The town I live in: Tucson, AZ
My pet’s names:
Sadie-
Leo-
The name of my love: Michael
My first name: Tara
My middle name: Ann
My last name: Marchese
(Need to clarify: I don’t know these dudes, nor do I know anyone in the Appalachia. But their funny factor was way up.)
January 29th, 2008
Blogging everyday exposes you. I am in the middle of a personal crisis week and I am avoiding topics outside of football, music lyrics, youtube videos and the like. Blogging started as simply writing for myself and it quickly turned into words I realized other people might be reading. I don’t count comments or even rely on them to go on blogging, please don’t get me wrong, I welcome them and are always astounded that people leave them. But I started without the intention that other people may actually read my, for the lack of a better word, crap. Now that fear that my words may get too personal or too deep or too close I keep them inside. Isn’t that defeating the purpose of writing? I know that it is.
Maybe I need to reassess what I’m doing here. I don’t know if I want to be funny here, or nostalgic, or informational. I didn’t really think I needed a focus, but after the few days I’ve had I find myself needing one or I will treat anyone who reads this as my personal psychiatrist. Although many of us feel that we are like one of those most days to many people we know, I’ve never wanted to treat anyone like that. I don’t like to burden people and just as much I don’t want people to think I’m weak or have problems. It isn’t that I want to portray myself as perfect, no that isn’t it at all. It’s that I don’t want them to see me as pathetic, angsty or annoying. I guess that’s like trying to convince the world that I’m not human.
Or maybe it’s just that this is so public and so permanent. I’m not kidding myself, airing my dirty laundry won’t be in any headlines, but they are mine and they are important to me. I wonder if all bloggers go through this phase? I wonder if this fear of exposure is common? I wonder if I’ll blog about football tomorrow?
Filed under: Emotions | Tags: Emotions, ipod, iPod offering, sarah mclachlan
January 28th, 2008
Mary walks
Down to the water’s edge
And there she hangs her head
To find herself faded
A shadow of what she once was
She said ’how long have I been sleeping
And why do I feel so old
Why do I feel so cold
My heart is saying one thing but my body won’t let go’
With trembling hands she reaches up
A stranger’s flesh is offered
And I would be the last to know
I would be the last the let it show
I would be the last to go
Take her hand
She will lead you through the fire
Give you back hope
And hope that you won’t take too much
Respecting what is left
She cradled us
She held us in her arms
Unselfish in her suffering she could not understand
That no one seemed to have the time
To cherish what was given
And I would be the last to know
And I would be the last to let it show
I would be the last to go…
Mary walks…
Filed under: Etsy | Tags: Bill, blogging, Etsy, firemountaingems, SadieAndLeo.etsy.com
January 26th, 2008
I just spent the last hour shopping my favorite supply shop in the entire known world, firemountaingems*, and I’ve gotta tell you I feel good. I am a little obsessive about buying supplies, hence why I have a supply shop in conjunction with my jewelry shop on Etsy. I stopped shopping in local stores for the most part, even though I still frequent Jo-Ann’s here in town. My friend Bill works there and he makes me happy to see him every once and a while; I’ve known him since the first few days of moving to Tucson. So I shop firemountain because it is incredibly awesome, makes me happy and I can do it in my pajamas. I only put an order in once a month because I had to limit myself. You know a little self control goes a long way. I’ve got a whole lot of unique things coming in this order, new and fresh colors in the glass pearls I love, filigree, new sizes and summery colors of glass and crystal. I even bought some findings that I’ve been planning on ordering and just always forget when I sit down for my order.
Submitting my order today made me realize that I don’t pimp my shop nearly enough on this blog. Do I want to use my blog for advertising my shop, if that is a positive by-product of doing so than that can’t be bad. No, I think I just want to talk about my pieces because it is one of the few things that I’m truly proud and in love with about my life. I don’t want to drone on about my work but I don’t think I want to hide it either. I’ve only been constructing jewelry for sale since last June and it has evolved so rapidly since then. I have never made anything and regretted it afterwards (I have a drawer full of those). I made everything with all I had to give even in the beginning. Surely my craft has improved, my techniques and materials have grown up. I even steadily raised my prices to reflect my confidence. Have I reached the pinnacle of perfection? Of course not. Who can say that they have? I’ve always believed even when you are ready to teach, you still have room to learn.
Currently I’m playing with opposing forces in my jewelry design. I’m always drawn graphically to simple lines and shape, and silver lends well to that. But I also love organic shape, I’ve found that glass best serves me here, especially cheap glass. Cheap glass makes me happy because each piece is so unique and often in its original form. I like packs of glass that are the left-overs or I imagine them as the bits that are found on the floor of the glass cutters workspace (factory machine). I love to shine them myself and buff them with my dremmel. And then there is my hopeless romantic side, the side that doesn’t come out into the daylight except for in my jewelry designs. I unwillingly admit that I love pretty things. I don’t know why I am so opposed to being open about my liking girly things. It is completely acceptable. It’s my dreamy side I suppose that was never supported, so I keep it inside.
That’s my creative update and I think I’ll write more about my shop because I can’t think of why I’m not already.
Visit my shop on Etsy, SadieAndLeo.etsy.com
(* I also support and buy from fellow Etsians supply shops too!)
January 25th, 2008
Summer of ‘92.
I was thinking about the subject for this week’s time capsule and I remembered the last vacation I took with my Dad, and my brother. So long ago. And that was the summer before my life changed forever and I didn’t know then how important that time was going to be. It’s gone now forever, and I’m okay with that, but it still pangs nostalgia and I can tell you that I got a little emotional when I found all of the ticket stubs and our itinerary, in my father’s draftsman handwriting. I also pulled out my plastic tub of journals and cross referenced my entry for the day that landed in the middle of our vacation, my father’s birthday.
(Wow, this is harder than I thought it was going to be. My face is aching with that pain that comes when you try to hold in tears, because you thought you were stronger than that now.)
journal entry dated Wednesday, July 29th, 1992
“I don’t feel much like writing tonight, but I fear if I don’t certain feelings will be forgot. There were all of those memories come rushing in today on that mysterious mountain. It was Lois and her concrete slides and that mountain I’ll never climb or conquer. I felt it all beneath me and about me. I miss them all, family and especially him. xo, Tara”
I am referring to my father when I say “him”. Lois was my godmother and a very positive and strong influence in my childhood. The mountain was Mt. Washington.
itinerary for our vacation (me, Dad and Matty):
SAT 25TH MAINE
TROLLEY MUSEAUM
KENNEBUNKPORT (WE ATE)
YORK BEACH
SUN 26TH N.H.
WEIRS BEACH
WATERSLIDE AND
PEMIGEWASSET VALLEY
RAILROAD
MON 27TH
BOSTON MUSEUM OF SCIENCE
OMNI THEATER
T. SHIRT
NENES IN AFTERNOON
TUES 28TH
HAMPTON BEACH
MAT MET FRIEND FROM
CANADA (CHEAP DAY)
WED 29TH
CLIMBED MNT. WASHINGTON
BY CAR 44 DEGREES & 40 MPH WIND
ON TOP. ROCK PLACE
CHINK FOOD AT NIGHT.
THURS 30TH
MATT & TARA CANOBIE LAKE
12:00 TO SIX
CHICKLAND FOR DINNER
TARA TOOK 10 MIN TO ORDER
AND 30 MIN TO EAT.
FRI 31ST
FENWAY PARK
NORTH END BOSTON FOR SUPPER.
SAT
MOVIE BARBIE Q
SUN
MOVIE BARBIE Q
(Directly taken from my father’s itinerary written just so in blue ink on the back of a legal sized white envelope.)
This was the last time I went to many of these places. I wonder when I will go back.
I wonder if he thinks about this vacation.
Filed under: Odd Random Stuff Day | Tags: 3 truths and a lie, game, Odd Random Stuff Day
January 24th, 2008
Mike and I spent our summer days at a nude beach in NH, over the summer of 1999.
I have been engaged to more than one person in my lifetime.
I lost my virginity at age 15, but didn’t get drunk until 18 and didn’t get my driver’s license until I was 22.
I have voted for Republican candidates.
Filed under: Commentary, TV | Tags: 10 Things I Hate About You, A Knight's Tale, Batman, Brokeback Mountain, Heath Ledger, Lords of Dogtown, River Phoenix, Roar, The Patriot
January 23rd, 2008
May our demons in this life not travel with us into the next.
I wasn’t Heath Ledger’s biggest fan by any means but I like fine acting and he was a fine actor. He never was one of those over assuming actors, taking the headlining roles, or at least he hadn’t yet. I feel that he was slowly but steadily building his acting career by making smart role choices, just watch “Lords of Dogtown” if you don’t agree with me. He was sweet in “10 Things I Hate About You” and the likable hero and everyday guy in “A Knight’s Tale”. You routed for him in “The Patriot”. You felt him in “Brokeback Mountain”. He was up and coming in the best of senses when you just look at the trailers for the next Batman movie, you just know how masterful and introspective that character is going to be. I will miss his contribution to the art of acting. There will be a void and in his death I am reminded of when River Phoenix came to his end. Similar in loss yet so different when you think of how we were touched by the two, one seemingly hopeless and one seemingly hopeful.
I recommend highly, and always have, his brilliant but canceled fantasy series, Roar. It may appear at first glance to be a bit Xena and a pinch of Hercules, but underneath all of that Celtic/Roman set dressing is one extremely well written, well acted and enjoyable TV shows. There were only 13 made and is just a gem in and of itself with a fine up and coming actor, Heath Ledger.
January 21st, 2008
I felt a sickness coming on and knowing me and knowing my white blood cells, well, I will take all the help I can get. So today I think I kicked it, or the jury is still out on it but here’s what I tried because, heck, no one has probably given this a go:
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Filed under: Football | Tags: Brett Favre, Eli Manning, Football, New England, Patriots, Superbowl, Tom Brady
January 20th, 2008
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t ecstatic that the Pats are going to the Superbowl, but not as ecstatic for the fact that we aren’t going to have to beat Brett Favre. As much as I admire Eli Manning’s tenacity, I won’t mind knocking him off his sophomoric pedestal. He’s got lots of years ahead of him. With that said, I’m sure that Brett will be bidding ado.
Do we need another Superbowl win? I suppose that is the question. Will that finally solidify our stake in dynasty legacy? A lot of people look at the Patriots with disdain, hate, and jealousy but let’s look at what makes the Patriots great. It’s in the way that their legacy began. It begin with a sixth round draft pick, cast offs, players other teams gave up, fans who believed in them even when they were the joke of the league. And that is the foundation on which they kept building on. They took in players who no one wanted, focused on special teams and on not promoting one player above another. Tom Brady could utilize a buffet of receivers, coaches encouraged the strengths of the players, and owners allowed decisions to be made in camp and not from above. These are the things that built this dynasty. Come February 3rd, win or lose, this is what will be remembered about these New England Patriots.
I’m up for another win.
January 19th, 2008.
I hate waiting for
Something that may change my life
Fear and unknowing
