In that kind of mood.
May 15th, 2008
I hate being in this state of mind. Actually I love it. The weather has been on a kind of edge here lately, raining and dark and I love every moment of those days because they are so infrequent in the desert. It’s a funny thing, saying that the sun can depress you, but having sun 355 days a year will do that to you because of its constant unchanging perseverance. So it puts me in that mood. The only way I can describe it is melancholy but not sad, nostalgic but not bittersweet, empty but full of something like yearning but not needing. It’s a creative and dangerous place to be. I feel like drawing again, and I haven’t for 11 years. I feel like pouring over old pictures and letters and maybe for the last time feeling something I don’t want to feel ever again.
Maybe I should just get drunk or watch a sad movie… or maybe both.
Aaron Said:
on May 15, 2008 at 9:08 pm
I’ll trade our rainy days for your sunny ones. If you’re interested. I’m not sure of the feasibility of such a trade, but I’ll let science worry about it.
Noelle Said:
on May 16, 2008 at 6:47 am
A dark theatre sounds like a good cure for too much sun. But like Aaron, I’d happily trade you today. It’s gloomy out here, with no forecast of sun in the near future.
Jenn(stilettoheights) Said:
on May 16, 2008 at 6:50 am
I felt like this the other day, I watched Titanic and sobbed…it was great.
here in c-bus we have only 60 (or so) sunny days a year…we actually get more rain than Seattle…bet you didn’t know that, I know I did not.